I am no good at waiting

When I started working at a daycare, I thought God was teaching me patience.

When I got married and all of a sudden life didn't revolve around me, I thought God was teaching me patience.

When I started teaching and had large class sizes in a Title 1 school where many kiddos didn't speak English as their native language (or at all yet), I thought God was teaching me patience. 

When I had kids of my own, I thought God was teaching me patience.

When Madi was diagnosed in-utero with Spina Bifida and no one could answer my questions, other than to tell me we'd have to wait and see, I thought God was teaching me patience.

And now, as I sit here waiting for adoption approval, I can see that I really have not learned any patience at all.  Maybe this is my time to learn.

Every day I rush to the mailbox to see if we have an approval letter.  Every day, I am disappointed.  Every day I have to resist the urge to call or e-mail our agencies about our paperwork and (hopefully) approval.  The waiting game is really hard.  I expected to wait after our approval, while things went to India to get approved, but I was really praying things would go faster here in the states.  Wacap has had our paperwork since May, and still have not approved us.  The state of Arizona has had it since May too, yet we are still not approved.  I KNOW that all of this waiting is for a reason, even if I cannot see it, but man am I struggling!  I know I should be enjoying the calm before the (paperwork) storm, but I'm not.  I just want to know if that precious little girl that needs a home will be ours.  I know it won't be easy to bring her home, but I know she will be a blessing (please remind me I said that when things get rough ;)). 

So since I'm no good at waiting, will you please all join me in praying that we get approved here quickly?  Ok, ok, I get it, I know I need to be patient.....

And let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we shall reap if we do not grow weary.

-Galatians 6:9