He chose her for us

For those of you who follow our adoption journey, you know that our prayer has been for God to make it VERY clear who He wants us to adopt.  Every day, multiple times a day, I prayed that He would show us.... and He did...

... and it threw me in to a tizzy.  Yup, I prayed and prayed and prayed he would show us, and once He did, I freaked out.  That sounds just about right, right???

On Friday I got a call from Wacap.  It was a new lady that I had not talked to before and she had some questions about us adopting Ramya (the older of the two children).  I answered her questions and told her that I thought we were on the list for two girls, Manasa and Ramya, and gave her a bit of the back-story as to how we were on the list for both.  That's when she gave me some interesting news.  Wacap had sent all the paperwork to the orphanage on the families considering adopting children in their orphanage.  Apparently the orphanage director chose another family for Manasa, and chose us for Ramya. Just like that, the choice was made for us, and we did not even know!

Now, let me just say that we fully understand we do not have to choose to adopt Ramya.  We understand we could back out all together, that we could choose to wait for another child, that we have other options, and that there will always be children that need a family.  We do understand, but we are choosing to continue to try and adopt Ramya.

So with that said, I'll go back to why I freaked out.  Ramya sparked our interest in adoption, and back when she did, I really had a strong feeling she would be ours.  Then we thought she found another family, and I was thrown off.  After that Manasa came in to the picture.  Though Manasa (the younger of the two) made more logical sense, as she has less of a possibility of having major attachment disorders (RAD- Reactive Attachment Disorder), has less pressing physical needs, and is younger, I still felt my heart pulling me towards Ramya.  Even though I prayed God would make the choice, though, I guess I still thought it would be us to physically say which child we wanted to adopt.  I know it's silly since I got EXACTLY what I prayed for, but it just really threw me off! 

I have had this thought in my head that continues to pop up over and over... "God does not call us to make the easy choices."   I was actually going to write a whole blog post on it, and just never found the words I wanted to say.  David and I have been talking A LOT about the two girls and when we found out about the orphanage choosing Ramya for us (well, really, it was God ;)), we were both thrown off a bit, but also were/are both feeling that we want to continue to pursue Ramya (I anxiously await the day we are approved and I can call her my daughter!).

So there you have it.  The choice has been made.  We pray that the day will come quickly when we can bring Ramya home! 





Here's a book I am currently reading that I am liking so far.  It paints a very honest picture of the types of situations and things you may deal with when you adopt a child with a rough background, but also offers tips on how to work through these issues.