I've always known

People are always asking if I was surprised when I found out Madi had spina bifida.  Although I was a bit taken back, of course, I really think I've always known.  I have always felt led to adopt a child with special needs.  Whenever I would tell someone my plan, in the back of my head I would hear a voice saying "or maybe God will give you one of your own".  I always ignored the voice, assuming that my child would be born "perfect" (though both my children absolutely are!!) and that I would adopt, not have, the child that needed extra care.  I believe that was God's way of preparing me for the special child he was going to give us.  Now that Madi is here, I wouldn't want things any other way.  She is absolutely perfect and is exactly the person God wanted her to be!