One of the first things I hear when I tell people I have a child with spina bifida is that I must be strong. They tell me God gives his most precious angels to those who are strongest and who will fight for them. I know that they are right. I know God gave us Madi because he knew we would give her the best life possible. Instead of doing what is convenient, He knew we would do what was in her best interests. He knew we would travel to China if that's what it took. Though I know all of this, it doesn't always make things easier. There are days like today where I don't want to be strong. Today I just want to cry and be held. Being strong is hard and tiring and for just one day, maybe even just one hour, I want to just let go. Instead, I remind myself that everything happens for a reason. God will not give me more than I can handle. Today, instead of letting go, I'm going to go forward. Everything will be ok.
We're praying night and day for you and your family. thanks so much for having this blog:)
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and Madi. Be strong Jamie.
ReplyDeletePersonally, I DO think God gives us more than we can handle...on our own. That's why we need Him- if we could handle it on our own, we wouldn't need Him.
ReplyDeleteI've seen families walk through situations where I think "they must be so strong. I could never do that." Then I remind myself that we all do what we have to do, and what we are called to do with the situations we're given, especially when it comes to our loved ones.
There will be days when you just can't be strong anymore- that's ok. God is strong enough for the both of you.
Crying and being held doesn't make you less strong. Don't forget that. HUGS
ReplyDeleteOh Momma!! I know how you feel. Go ahead and cry...I've found it exhausts me more to fight it ;)
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